September 30, 2010




* a disposition or tendency to look on the more favorable side of events or conditions and to 
expect the most favorable outcome.

* the belief that good ultimately predominates over evil in the world.

* the belief that goodness pervades reality.

* the doctrine that the existing world is the best of all possible worlds.

confidence, hopefulness, cheerfulness

[thank you]


September 29, 2010

this guy.

i see this guy.
on chestnut ave.
almost everyday.

i do not know him.

he is usually somewhere on this stretch of road.

he rides a bike too.

his is a mountain bike.
mine is not.

we always bike the opposite directions of each other.
both going home from work.

he wears a helmet.
i do not.

he rides on the street.
i choose the sidewalk.

he is an expert.
i am a beginner.

we always nod at each other.
it really makes my day.
i look forward to seeing him on my ride home.

today i thought more about this guy.
i bet he has a family.
he is working hard for them.
he is being safe for them too.
he does where a helmet.

everyday around 6:07pm our lives cross paths.
on opposite sides of the street.

we nod.
with a little smile.
it makes the world a better place.

September 27, 2010

the countdown.

i will be in utah with my lovelies.
cat and hill j.

reunions of all kinds will be happening.
i am SO excited for all of them.

memmotts. jose romo jr. blacky. foxy fox. pulleys.
the WMM.
bebe kay. uvu photo crew. lisa jane & ash.
brandon. missy. jacob barlow. AEJ.
general conference.
and SO many more!


also ..
a great reunion to be SO excited about is this one ..

Sister Virginia May Johnson
my missionary girl!

this is her 1st full day in the WMM.
i had the wonderful opportunity to train and spend 4.5 months with this pot of love!
we had some pretty amazing adventures together.
saw SO many miracles together.

and LOVED beyond description our Winnebago YSA!

this was on MY LAST DAY in the WMM.
i served with ALL the Sister Johnsons assigned to the WMM!
i loved it.

sister little j as she is know by in the WMM has been a STELLAR missionary for her entire 1.5 year.
she taught me SO much about OBEDIENCE, DILIGENCE, & HOPE!

i was lucky enough to see her when i traveled back to the Wiscons in June.
of course we went to Culvers together.
i got her hooked. along with ALL my companions!  

and now her time as a Full Time Representative of Jesus Christ is coming to a close.
but i KNOW she will never stop being a missionary.
she has blossomed into the amazing Daughter of God that He has intended.

Utah will be SO full of LOVE in just 5 short days!

September 23, 2010

The House of God

This place is beautiful!

Los Angeles Temple

being inside these walls puts my life back into perspective.

i feel peace.
i feel joy.
i feel love.

i needed this tonight.

[thank you liz and rachel]

if you are looking for a quiet spot in LA here is your place.

the Vistors Center just reopened too.
its amazing.
open 9am - 9pm
7 days a week
check it out!

and this ..

September 22, 2010

officially FALL!

i LOVE the fall.

WISCONSIN has the BEST fall.
the best.
i fell in love.

looking at these photos makes me fall in love all over again.

before my wisco life i lived in utah and they have a good fall.
wisconsin has the best.
california has NONE.

so today i am remembering how great wisconsin is.
ok thats literally EVERYDAY.

i started my mission in the fall.
maybe thats why i am OBSESSED with it.

and this lady.
my hood.

[door county, wisconsin]

we traveled up the peninsula of wiscons in the peak of the fall.
talk about BEAUTY.
and short short hair!

this day was CRISP. CLEAN.
it was fall.

i couldnt stop lovin on the colors.
even now!
oh how i miss it.

if i was in wiscons right now i would prob be wearing leggings and a scarf already!

but again.
i am in california.
1 season. 

breathtaking, eh?!

[milwaukee, wisconsin]

i was SO happy i got 2 falls in wiscon.
that meant 2 winters.
but i will GLADLY take the winter for the fall.
maybe not gladly but i will take it!

this Pday was so fun.

my 3 girls and i were serving in the same zone.
only .5hour from each other.
the racine sisters came up to play.

we had a fall photo shoot in Whitnall Park.
i think this was Blacks doing!

and my girls.
arent they lovely?!

my pammy jo black is home.
i am SO grateful for that.
i just wish we were roommates.

my little j comes home in 1.5 weeks!
where did her time go?!

my has a while yet!
but she is a rock star.
i miss her.

the colors of fall aren't quite there yet in wisconsin.
maybe more up north they are.
but it is fall.
and i know its prob getting chilly there.

my i miss it.

i DO love cali nation.
today was pretty chilly.

but the colors. 
we dont get that here.
i will live.

maybe ill just go back to wisconsin.
or utah.

goodbye summer.
hello fall!

show me what you got!

September 21, 2010

falling in love ..

this was my eve ..

google video chat with these two love birds ..

look at them. 
look at that love.
i love robbie and hannahs love for each other.
i love love.

[i stole this off your fb my hanner!]

they make me happy.
they make each other happy.
they enjoy their scout uniforms too.

i then proceeded to watch GLEE with my marmie.
i love.

then i ironed.
i NEVER iron.

i finally gave in.
but thats not the point of this post.
this is what i am getting to ..

while i was ironing.
my pandora was playing.
this song came on.

i fell in LOVE.
with the song.
the words.
the feeling it gave me.

i want you all to listen.
[and watch. the vid is the best.]

while you listen think of the one you LOVE.
you will fall in love over and over.

my eve was full of love.

i have been listening to this song on repeat for the last 2 hours.
dont judge.

like i said ..
i LOVE love.
i really do.

i usually keep my love life to myself and off my blog.
i talk to my sisters about it.
of course.

i am going to share a little now.

i am 25.
i am a college graduate.
i am a returned missionary.
i lived in provo, utah for 4 years.
i am LDS.
[a mormon]

i get asked all the time why i am not married.
recently asked just 3 days ago.

love has been on my mind.
and then this song came on.


it makes me want to fall in love.

i am currently dating.
no one in particular.
in fact i havent had a date in maybe a month.
i did get froyo last week with a guy friend.
maybe that was a date?

i want to fall in love.
i want it to be right falling in love.
if that makes sense.
it does in my mind.

i want my prince charming to sing this song to me.

preferably like Lloyd in Say Anything.  

outside my window.

i want to know.
really know.
like lisa robertson know.
[ask hailey hood-jones about that one!]
when i fall in love.

im pretty sure i will.
just waiting for that right match to come along.

hopefully making myself better day by day so i am ready.
for this prince charming.

my good friend amyjo is an inspiration to me.
i read her blog awhile ago and found this post.
she is an inspiration to me.

i thought alot about her words today as i have been listening to this song.
because falling in love is scary for me.
because of the past.
amyjo reminded me to not hold on to that.

hannah also reminded me.
thank you.

forward i go.
waiting for the Lords timing in all things.

falling in love will be exactly what i dream of.
i am sure of it.

i am going to dream of it now.

and i will remember ..

"I plead with you not to dwell on days now gone nor to yearn vainly for yesterdays, however good those yesterdays may have been. The past is to be learned from but not lived in. We look back to claim the embers from glowing experiences but not the ashes."
- Jeffery R. Holland

September 20, 2010

the GREAT debate ..

i am having an internal battle.

i need some help.

i need a change.
for girls this usually means they want to change their hair.

it is true.
i am THINKING of a change.
for my hair.

so here is where this debate comes into play ..

stay with me.
help me.

2 years ago i went on a mission.
to the land of wisconsin.

life as a full time missionary is DEMANDING.
i did NOT want to have to deal with my hair.

this is what i looked like 2 years ago.

i had been PLATINUM BLONDE for 10+ years.

i dyed it dark brown so my NATURAL could grow in.

that has been my hair color for the last 2 years.
thank wmm for giving me a hair color change among A LOT of other amazing things!

this is me now ..

come follow me to this ..
the GREAT debate.

should i STAY NATURAL 



what is your opinion?

if i know of yours already i want it again.

the sooner the better!

i need changes!


Fix You

1. i LOVE this song.
2. i love SYTYCD.
3. i LOVE robert & allison.
4. i love her dress / dancing outfit thing.
5. i LOVE the inspiration.

but it takes you to YouTube to watch it.

September 19, 2010


my dear friend Cat is a Master Esthetician! a professional guys.
licensed and everything.

Jon brought up NOSE WAXING for some odd reason and Cat said she specialized in that.

Jon and I decided to do it together.
i was intrigued.
he was ALL about it.

so we had a SPA night.

even though it was JONS idea ..

he got REALLY nervous!

look at that face!

but come one..



Jon went first.
i have a video of it too.
[for a later post if Jon approves!]

he then made ME nervous.
but i trust Cat with my life.
and my bike.

so why not my nose?!

look at that blue stuff!

it was quite the odd feeling.

told you.

i think you are great. 


good thing he did NOT pull out the stick of wax and nose hair.

Jon and I together.
its a very attractive look.

we are both single.
anyone want a date?

we will come withOUT the sticks in our noses!

and then ..


it feels GREAT.

Jon and I are a little addicted to it now.
Jon will actually be getting his done again this week.
Me prob next week.

now the whole ward is jumping on this boat.

Catherine N. Card is located in Arcadia.
on a street full of peacocks.
contact her for all your waxing needs!

Love Lost - Temper Trap

i am OBSESSED with Temper Trap.
this is the new love.

i am still obsessed with Sweet Disposition too.
ok ALL of TT.

but these lyrics are great. 
and the vid is interesting.

Our love was lost
But now we've found it
Our love was lost, was lost
And hope was gone

Our love was lost
But now we've found it
And if you flash your heart, your heart
I won't deny it
I promise

I promise

Your walls are up
Too cold to touch it
Your walls are up, are up
Too high to climb

I know it's hard
But I can still hear it beating
So if you flash your heart
I won't mistreat it
I promise

I promise

Our love was lost
In the rubble are all the things
That you've, you've been dreaming of
Keep me in mind
When you're ready
I am here
To take you every time

Oh, our love was lost
Lost, lost, lost, lost..
Our love was lost
But now its found

September 18, 2010

Heather Naomi Beck

today was her funeral.
put a lot about life into perspective.

thank you. i love you.

July 5, 1985 - August 26, 2010

Heather Naomi Beck

she is ..
.. and so so much more

i had the wonderful opportunity of meeting and being friends with this little lady when i joined 

she was such a joy to be with.
she always made me smile.
and laugh.

girls camp was the BEST because of Heather.

she made our cabin exciting and fun!
she would sleep walk sometimes too.
she would dance and sing for us.
she would teach us some gymnastics.
she loved dressing up for our skits.
never was she self conscious.
she just wanted to have fun.
that helped the rest of us get out of our shells.

i have a lot of wonderful memories of Heather.
i am really grateful for the time i had to know and spend with her.

Heather helped me A LOT.

we would have sleepovers at her house.
we would stay up talking for hours.
we tried to always stay up till midnight so we could have a LEGIT midnight snack!

she would play the drums.
pretty sure we bothered her brothers.

she helped me to know i wasnt alone.
that even though we all had different trials, we could all overcome them.
she helped me to remember that those trials didnt define who we are.
that we could move forward.

my mind keeps replaying those conversations for me.
i will always be grateful for Heather.

the Beck family was a great strength to our Warner family.
Brother Byron Beck was our Home Teacher for a while.
he helped us with some really hard and good things.
thank you so much for everything.

thank you for raising a wonderful daughter.

the restored gospel of Jesus Christ is what keeps us together for eternity.

The Plan of Salvation is comforting and true.
i know it to be so.

you are missed. 
you are amazing.
thank you for your wonderful spirit.
i love you.

September 16, 2010

answers to life's great questions

it is true.



[jeremiah thomas james. this made me think of you. especially on such a special day! meaning 9.17.10]

September 15, 2010

investment #1 & #2 post mission!

         i finally invested in something.
something i need and that will last me a good while.
thats what an investment is right?!

take a guess ..
it does this ..

you guessed it right ..


oh i love it so!

investment #2
it came with my new mac book pro
[thank you L for the student hook up!]

an iPod Touch!

this is quite the little upgrade for me.

dont believe me?

i have been using ..

iPod Shuffle 1st Gen

for the last 5 years!
its a trooper.

my little white stick of gum iPod.
we have been through some good songs.
only 120 at a time though.

thank you.
i will never forget you.

but the iPod touch will actually hold my all my iTunes.

done and done.

next investment ..

i am a photographer arent i?!